I
am currently living in Fredericton, New Brunswick, fortunate to have the
opportunity (one I may never have again) to live without an income. I have,
since high school, always held a job, so I’m still trying to figure out what or
which daily routine will most benefit my practice and my time. My partner, also
a writer (a Ph.D. candidate in Creative Writing), has their own daily routine,
one that is well-suited to our life here; but I am still aimless in my pursuit
of comfort, literary and otherwise.
I
became a bookseller in the winter of 2013, plucked from my job as a pizza
slice-slinger and dropped into a carefully-curated independent bookstore in
Missoula, Montana. In 2014, I jumped ship, trading one independent bookstore
for another, and I remained a bookseller until I moved to Fredericton last
August. Bookseller became my mindset as a reader. I began to hoard
books, both relishing in the galley closet of the bookstore where I worked and
buying books by the armful; it became my job to know about forthcoming and
backlist titles, titles that were selling well, and titles that needed my
nudging. The books on my own bookshelves tripled in number. My routine, still
influenced by this mindset, includes research—thumbing my way though publishers’
websites and scrolling through Twitter, a great resource, I think, for
writers and readers alike. As you can see from the photo of my workspace, I
write and work surrounded by growing piles of books and manuscripts.
The
poetry I am writing now documents my transitional and home-making experiences
in Atlantic Canada, which means that my daily routine consists of reading,
analyzing, and translating my horoscope. I do this, because I am trying to
capture the rhetoric of prophecy. It’s not that I want these poems to be
prophetic; it’s that I want to complicate the relationship between the speaker “I”
and the reader “you.” In conversation, I call these works in progress my “horoscope
poems,” and I’ve collected them under the working title Other Modern
Divinities. This is all to say that I have been thinking
about the stars and about (dis)comfort. The following is the first poem I wrote
in the series: “Your horoscope for Saturday, December 16.”
Today, your watchwords are forgiveness
and surrender.
They are the same. You are a long, wool scarf
carried by a wind that slights you;
though this coastal humidity has kept your skin
moisture-rich, there is a dry patch between
your brows.
Combination complication, an advocation:
lavender baths.
Your bed-partner rises each morning before the
winter sun.
You will never again get a full night’s sleep.
Your body is a compound leaf; or, it is an
exposed, bare stem. You linger
in the sheets. Late to bed, late to rise. This
is part of your aesthetic.
The balsamic moon you glimpse from your
mattress is choking you,
but the salads you prepare every night for
dinner have been on point
for months—mouthfuls of sweet corn, caramelized
onions.
Wax sentimental, repeat recipes. You are cause
for celebration.
You might head to the mall today.
In front of mirrors, be kind to your body,
its rounding and softening edges. When I say, “forgiveness”
and “surrender,”
what I mean to say is, “your discomfort is not
immutable.”
What I am saying is, “your discomfort is not
immutable.”
Admittedly, I’m fairly new to poetry—though it
has already served me well. It brought me to the Tin House Summer
Workshop last year, to a workshop led by Mary Ruefle and her eccentric,
singular perspective; and I’m a poetry reader for a number of literary
magazines. It is often the case that I begin my day with full queues of poetry.
Until I begin my coursework at the University of New Brunswick this fall, my
writing time is practice and, above all, reading.
I
am also the Interviews and Reviews Manager, and now the Director of Content,
for The Adroit Journal. When
I’m not receiving and responding to e-mails from readers, publishers, and
writers, I’m reading and editing interviews, reviews, and blog posts awaiting
publication. I came to this job in January, and it has become a part of my
daily routine, be it weekday or weekend.
Writing
constitutes very little of my literary citizenship—citizenship being at the
heart of why I do what I do. It was while working for the University of Montana’s
literary magazines, The Oval and CutBank, that I first felt the
joy of bringing literature to life, of guiding a Word document from accepted
submission to a typeset page in a journal or book—to a physical artifact (or,
in the case of Adroit, a readied blog post or online issue). For many of
my first months here, I was glued to my computer, designing and typesetting
chapbooks and literary magazines. The pride I feel in a published, hand-held
book—be it a journal of many writers or a collection of one—is like no other,
and it’s a feeling that guides my perception of literary communities and of the
publishing industry as whole. But really, I’m enamored by the minds of
others, and I want my citizenship to be one of support and elevation. This
makes sense to me: I am a Capricorn.
My
(small press) writing day is at the service of your writing day. For
now.
Lauren R. Korn is a poet and graphic designer currently
living in Fredericton, New Brunswick. She is the Director of Content for The Adroit Journal and will be an M.A.
student of
Creative Writing at the University of New Brunswick this fall. Her work has
appeared and is forthcoming.
Yay Lauren! Mad love from back home!!!
ReplyDeleteThis makes sense to me too: I am also a Capricorn.
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