My
writing day starts with a walk.
Down
the wooden steps from my front door, up the sidewalk for several blocks, taking
the shady side of the street because these days in my city are hot and sticky.
I
walk fast, with my notebook and pen clutched in my hand or with a whole bag
ready: book, water bottle, chapstick, notebook, phone to distract me or disrupt
me, and of course my sunglasses.
Up
enough blocks that my pace is starting to slow, and there it is: Blackstone
Boulevard Park, a 3.29 mile long skinny oasis of grass and trees that stretches
across the East Side of Providence. Most people come here to run, jostling
sweaty and determined down the paved path in the middle of the park, sometimes
with an eager, leashed dog galloping alongside. Middle-aged women come with a
friend to speed walk, hoodies tied around their waists if it is evening, shorts
and sneakers if it is day. I come here to write.
A
bench in a park is a favorite place of mine for writing, along with coffee
shops and libraries and taquerias with cerveza a-plenty. I have a desk at home,
but it’s often contaminated with schoolwork, letters to write, bills to pay,
things I ought to attend to. If I do stay home, I go out on the balcony and put
my feet up on the railing and watch the squirrels on their weirdly thrilling
daredevil missions across the wires. Wherever I am, I spend a good deal of my
writing time watching instead of writing. This probably concerns the people
with whom I am sharing these coffee shops, because I will often stare into
space for quite a while before a thought comes to me and I am ready to move the
pen again. I have been told that I also mouth words while doing this, and
though I am pretty sure this only happens while revising poems, I’m sure some
unsuspecting bro has looked up from his latte to think I am hexing him under my
breath.
I
know it is the practice of many writers to seek seclusion; to sit at the desk
and look at the wall until they can get the writing done. Perhaps I’m fortunate
in that writing is not my “job” (at least not right now), and therefore I am
free of deadlines and have no existential acupuncture needles to paralyze me. I
try to write a little every day, but other than that, I require nothing of myself
except enjoyment and free-flowing creativity. I am more successful at the every
day habit in some months more than others. But I’m happy to report that I’m on
a 6-week streak right now, and that’s a lovely stabilizing feeling. Writing,
for me, isn’t getting the job done, it’s exploring.
So
it helps to be someplace worth exploring. That’s how ideas happen for poems and
essays. Maybe this is too simple a formulation, and many may cry foul once
informed that my novel-in-progress takes place on the prairie in the American
West. No, I don’t just take things from the world and put them in my writing,
but once I got accustomed to noticing things in a writerly way – that is,
noticing things as isolated unready-to-hand items in their own right, not just
implements to move through a normal life – I see that interesting prompts are
everywhere. I am feeling generous, so I will give you two examples:
1.
Today I am writing under a speaker playing cool boppy tunes in Providence
Bagel. I’m sitting next to a young family with 4 kids. I look up when I hear
the oldest boy say “I see the thing that we don’t have to take anymore,” to see
that he is pointing at the city bus.
2.
I am a very responsible driver; however, I would like to inform you that the
most poetic road sign in the world is in middle Massachusetts near a little
forest preserve with trails. It says:
HIKER
BIKER
HORSE
If
I don’t somehow get this into a poem this summer, you can have it.
I
suppose I don’t know what my poetry would look like if it didn’t look like the
world around me. Often I have to just sit and notice for a while. This results
in a lot of lists in my notebook. That’s okay – they can join the random 3 am
jotting of dream thoughts, which often don’t make sense in the morning (what
was so poetic that I had to scrawl BRAN MUFFIN across the pad on my
nightstand?). They can join the collection of wonderful lines that people say
when they’re giving voice to their unformed thoughts or when they don’t know
you’re listening. I keep track of things I should have said, love notes that
don’t apply to anyone I’ve met yet, types of flowers, star signs and grief
signs and recipes for disaster.
So
for me, it’s essential to go out in the world and live. Go ahead, buy yourself
a cup of coffee or better yet a brownie. Take the long walk down Blackstone
Boulevard to a new bench, one whose epigraph reads “To Ron: You are my
Destination.” Linger at the pub over another beer and see if anyone asks what
you’re writing.
Nora Pace writes poetry,
essays, and fiction. Her flash fiction and poetry has been published or is
forthcoming in Barren Magazine, borrowed
solace, and Riggwelter Press. She
recently attended the Kettle Pond Writers’ Conference. She lives in Providence,
Rhode Island.