Asking
a writer about their writing day is not really a single question. Embedded are
things such as: Where do you write? When do you write? How long do you write
for? Do you have a magical pen? What secret techniques do you have that will
instantly convey talent, inspiration, and productivity? Or, to put it another
way, what does your writing routine look like and what can I learn from it?
In my case, I don’t
have a firmly structured “writing day” (or a magical pen, though I do have a
menagerie of pens I’m quite fond of, including one with special abilities. More
on that later.) What I do have is a
collection of habits that, over the years, I’ve found to be helpful.
One of my more useful
daily habits is obsessive note taking. I’ve read that we have roughly 60,000
thoughts each day. Most of these are pretty banal. The sky is grey. Judy has
a nice voice. If I drink any more coffee, I will have a seizure.
Occasionally, though, we do notice something interesting or wind up on a new
train of thought. I do my best to capture these thoughts, not because they are
actually great thoughts but because it teaches my brain to notice and remember
things. It also creates a storehouse of raw materials for possible later
use.
Many years ago I
participated in something called the 3:15 Experiment. Its rules were simple but
not easy: for the entire month of August participants would set an alarm for
3:15 am and then attempt to write a stream of consciousness poem. The idea was
that by writing while you are only half-awake you are more likely to make novel
associations and less likely to edit yourself. It was a comprehensively awful
experience but it did teach me a lot about how my brain works.
For the first few
nights my writing was exceptionally dull. I found it difficult to come up with
anything to say, never mind capturing the kaleidoscopic dreamlike images I
hoped would appear. So I decided to cheat. During the day I began filing away
ideas and images that I could quickly write about at 3:15 am. This would allow
me to a) look like a creative genius and b) get the hell back to sleep. What I
didn’t anticipate, however, was how willingly my brain joined in the game.
After a few days, I was noticing details and making unusual associations during
my normal waking routine. For example, a group of distant rocks became a
metaphor for some old friends who, upon closer viewing, were not the warm and
welcoming people I thought they were. Not especially profound, but it was
unusual and, when handled by a hypnopompic 3:15 am mind, became something
rather interesting. Kaleidoscopic even.
Middle of the night
writing aside, there are no particular hours that I designate as “writing time”
and no particular place that I need to go to find my muse. That said, I am
keenly aware of time and its limitations because, really, it’s the most
fundamental of all creative resources. Without time, nothing happens. Time is
both strict and lenient. The days can’t be stopped or taken back, but they can
be shaped. Which is why I take notes. And, yes, often in the middle of the
night. This is where the pen I mentioned earlier comes in. In order to decrease
the likelihood of disturbing my bed partner I use a film critic’s pen to make
notes at night. Easier than switching on a lamp or actually getting out of bed,
the pen contains a tiny light at its tip, just bright enough to let me see what
I’m writing and dim enough to not FLOOD ME WITH BLUE LIGHT FROM MY PHONE EVEN
WITH DARK MODE AND THE ORANGE FILTER ON. You can see an example of a film
critic pen here.
As for actual bum-in-seat “serious”
writing. I would like to say that I do this every day but I don’t, and never
have. That’s not to say I don’t love it but, for me, it depends on what stage
I’m at in a particular project. The idea generation phase of my writing process
looks very much like lollygagging, time-wasting, and dry-mouthed anxiety. And
while this is partly true, it’s also a kind of slutty curiosity. And even more
than that, it’s an act of faith. Somehow, from somewhere, the ideas will bloom,
the transmission will happen.
When, by some miracle, the amorphous stage
of fumbling curiosity takes shape as an idea, I change tactics. Curiosity never
wanes but once a project is underway (as with my current book) it becomes
essential to bring more structure to my writing day. I stop the ravenous
rabbit-holing and focus on the project at hand. I create outlines in Scapple to
help make sense and bring order to my myriad notes. I create detailed
bibliographies and research links and, at long last, begin writing. Sometimes I
start at the beginning. More often I start in the middle and make “filler
notes” for the rest. If possible, I carve out four to eight hour chunks to
“bleed” over the keyboard. And because I am part dog (squirrel!), I even wear clodhoppers:
industrial grade ear muffs. If the end of the world should happen while I’m
writing, please text or email. Because I won’t notice.
Of course, the most essential part of any
writer’s “writing day” is to actually write. It is also the most
difficult part. As Dorothy Parker famously said, “I hate writing but I love
having written.” This is an exaggeration (when I’m in flow I literally cannot
stop) but getting the ball rolling can feel both Herculean and Sisyphean. Those
first words, that first paragraph are the hardest for the simple reason that no
writer I know of (and certainly not me) is entirely convinced that they know
what they’re doing. Self-doubt is endemic to writing.
This is why it's
important to remind yourself, even against evidence to the contrary, that you
can do this. So many creative people have shared their tooth-and-nail struggles
with imposter syndrome. But maintaining self-belief is crucial — especially for
writers. I can think of no other profession that trades so heavily in
rejection. Even the most famous writers have had to swallow some very bitter
feedback. Comfortingly, the idea that "good" is really a matter of
taste is vividly illustrated in some of the hilarious/terrifying rejection
letters published online. All those thanks-but-you-suck responses take a toll on the heart.
But if there’s anything that separates a real writer from a scribbler it’s a
bloody-minded stubbornness to just get on with it.
Perhaps you’re
thinking that this sounds more mechanical than artistic. I won’t argue. I
subscribe to the idea that inspiration is up to the gods and the work is up to
me. Sure, there are those rare examples of inspired newbie authors who decide
to write a book, which goes on to find an agent, a supportive publishing house,
an eye-watering advance, and an enthusiastic readership. It’s also true that
England and Zanzibar once went to war for 38 minutes and a woman named Violet
Jessop survived both the sinking of the Titanic and her sister ship the Britannic. These things are possible, but
if you sit around waiting for them to happen you may never write a word.
I’ve been writing and
publishing for over twenty years but it never seems to get easier and I never
feel more legitimate. Perhaps that’s as it should be. I think it was Carol
Shields who said that feeling that we’re on the edge gives us an edge. My
“writing day” is an ongoing attempt to quiet my mind’s “itty bitty shitty
committee” while also making room for the magic that can sometimes happen when
I invest the time and mental energy to get my thoughts down on paper. And make
no mistake, it is an investment and it is magic. The urge to
write is a mysterious tap on the shoulder that comes with no promise of success
or fulfillment. It’s a compulsion that is not the same as inspiration. If
inspiration is a hair-on-fire rush to the swimming pool, the urge to write is
more like a persistent itch that scratching only temporarily satisfies.
In the end, maybe
that’s both a reasonable definition of “writer” and a summary of my writing
day. I’m just someone with a persistent urge to make something meaningful or
beautiful with words.
Christian Fink-Jensen is a writer of fiction, non-fiction, and
poetry. His work has appeared in more than fifty newspapers, magazines, and
journals around the world. He is the author and co-researcher of Aloha
Wanderwell: The Border-Smashing, Record-Setting Life of the World’s Youngest
Explorer (Fredericton: Goose Lane Editions,
2016). In 2017 Christian was a finalist judge for the CBC’s Nonfiction Literary
Awards. You can find him on Twitter @typomania and on his soon-to-be revived
website: www.finkjensen.com
Christian lives in Victoria, B.C.
