…because
once you commit to living with a parrot, the given is that he or she will rule
your day, much as children will. Desirée is a rainbow lorikeet, about the size
of a blue jay. I’ve had her for seventeen years.
First,
the commitment to the bird: it’s not the feeding and cleaning that are most critical,
it’s time. Between when she wakes and goes to sleep, she will need at least an
hour of quality eye-to eye time, divided into chunks of time for meals, petting
and treats. She knows the schedule better than I do, and holds me to it.
After
Desirée and her cage have been attended to, she wants/needs her time with me,
which involves scratching her neck feathers, sometimes plying ‘hiding’ games,
or string games using a certain leather shoelace strung with toys. When she’s
had enough of this, I’m free to write or
work on some part of catkin press
business. Desirée is free in the house but now that she’s older, she sleeps
much of the day.
Writing
and publishing fit around her chunks of time. When I wake before she does, I
read in bed, usually from the poetry books stacked beside the bed. Through the
day I make notes on strips of scrap paper, culled from what I read in books or
on the net, thoughts that come to me, observations and perceptions that I find
interesting enough to keep. When these scraps pile up I enter them into a Word
file called, for some reason I don’t remember, ‘april objects’; I often refer
to these notes when writing, highlighting ideas if I’ve made use of them. That file is 327 pages long at
the moment and goes back about five years. Writing takes precedence over my
press; if I am not writing, I get itchy, frenetic and bored.
I
do like the internet. And though it might be better use of my time to
‘socialize’ after my work is done, I’m at peace knowing what’s going on with
family and friends, and I keep in touch often, usually by email, with poets
while I’m publishing their books or chapbooks. While writing comes first, I
like to get details of a project cleared up and out of the way. A favourite
part of publishing for me is designing book covers, my artisitic breaks.
The
business of being a writer, of submitting my own poems and manuscripts, of
writing, editing and preparing work for a critique group such as The Ruby
Tuesdays or Other Tongues can grab good chunks of any day. When I’m into reading or writing poems, it’s
intense, and I’m easily startled if Ted calls me, or the phone rings. I forget
to get dressed most days, comfortable in housecoat and slippers, and am a bit
embarrassed if I have to answer the door at 3:00 p.m.
Participation
in the poetry community―facilitating poetry contests, attending board meetings
or organizing poets for the KaDo
presentations at Versefest, and going to readings―grabs other chunks of
a day.
The
actual process of getting books made means I’m in constant touch with my layout
person or the printer. Depending on the stage of the publication, I’m at the printers,
or getting estimates, discussing details, sending out invoices, checking proofs
and paying bills. There’s no money in being a small press publisher, which may surprise
some people. It’s an investment with various alternate modes of getting paid. I
am fortunate to live with someone who puts food on the table.
If
I’m working at home, the day will be broken up by Desirée who keeps track of
when it is time for lunch, (she likes to eat when I do), or mid-afternoon treat
time, my tea breaks. If I am reading, she might curl up in the crook of my
elbow and snooze a bit, but if she decides I shouldn’t read, she’ll do anything
she can to distract me, sit on my book, hang in front of the words, angle her
head against the corner of a hard cover, scratch her head against it. Cuteness
wins. She might want to dance to whatever is on CBC radio. She especially likes
the more contemplative slow movements of requiems or choral music. Watching her
dance settles me into the moment and I’m ready for whatever happens next.
As
soon as dusk begins to fall, Desirée wants to go to bed. She agitates, hopping
on my arm or squawking until I get her special towel, put it in her cage for
her to crawl into. I cover her cage, and suddenly the evening is all mine.
I
can keep on doing what I am doing on the computer or do things with family. We
have a large wilderness of a yard. There are cardinals and nuthatches and
woodpeckers in the evening and an hour or so in the swim pool with some wine,
especially if there’s a huge moon out, either puts me to sleep or brings on the
muse, which means I spend these late quiet hours on the making of poems or reworking
them. Or reading poems. Or escaping into lighter reading, like my Nordic
mysteries, or novels that take place in Central Europe during the second world
war.
You
may have noticed that no chunk of time labelled ‘housekeeping’ has been
mentioned.
Well,
it’s after noon, and the parrot wants to nibble on sandwiches. I’d better go.
Claudia Coutu Radmore is
Ontario’s rep for The League of Canadian Poets. Her series sea oyster leaf, sea olive: Fogo was short-listed for the 2017 Malahat Long Poem Contest. Selections
from the series will be published by Alfred Gustav Chapbook Press, Vancouver,
in the spring of 2018.
It's good to know that I'm not the only one who finds himself in his PJs at 3:00 in the afternoon. We've turned into those poor old people that we used to feel sorry for . . . who knows, maybe they were writing books too!
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